Sex and Violence

I must confess as many of you may already know, that I am very excited to model nude tomorrow for Timberly, I think it will be a great new experience. I am excited because, I think the human body (even the male form) is a beautiful thing, or at least can be, and I think this will help me to be even more comfortable with my body than I am (not that I am exactly prude about it now). It will only have my body, or be at least be loosely based off of my body, but it will not have my head or face. Anyway, I can understand that people may be annoyed with me for talking about it, because when I am excited or anything I tend to concentrate on one subject overly much, but at the same time I think people are simply squeamish about nudity and sex in this country.

As much as I love the Victorian era, this is one of my major disagreements with it (in many ways anyway). Why is our society so appalled by sex and nudity, I do not understand, yet at the same time they embrace violence, something that I abhor. I understand the necessity, benefits and inevitability of violence, but it is nothing I especially want to see. It is funny, every time, I see one of those films with things like car chases, or brutal fight scenes, my mind fades out from the film and I get bored with it. The only sort of violence I do not mind watching (in cinema) is battle scenes and especially historical battles. I wonder why those do not bother me, I think it is because I love strategy, and my mind is very engaged when it comes to strategic battle (as opposed to fire fights in Vietnam films). But, I hate the idea of suffering, and I can not stand the idea of others to be in pain. To this end I certainly do not understand the idea of violence as entertainment. It is very difficult for me to think of some things in my life, such as eating other animals, I do not think I could slaughter an animal myself and eat it, especially something as intelligent as a pig, but I like meat, and though it is easy to divorce myself from where meat comes from, it is still hard when I do consider it. Back to nudity... I do not know why people are so uncomfortable with it, but I have a few theories. One is they were raised to think of bodies as gross, or indecent, which is altogether possible. My other theory is that people are generally uncomfortable with their own bodies so the idea of nudity is very threatening to them. I do not know if that sounds more likely, but it may also be possible. I am sure I shall never really know why people dislike sex and nudity so much, but one thing bothers me about this picture. When I tell people about it, some react benign, but some also say gross, or 'I hope I never see it', they say they are 'joking of course' but all the same why would they have the implied indignation of jesting this way?

It would not bother me as much if people were grossed out by the thought of I was say in worse shape somehow, but I feel I have an exceptionally fit body in the prime of its life, maybe they ought not to be clamouring over me for a glimpse, but certainly not disgusted either. To me, I feel that human nudity (especially of attractive people) is very alluring in many ways. One it looks neat, and it is a marvel of anatomical creation. Two, it gives suggestion of sexuality, and I love sex, or at least in an academic way I do (discussing it), and anyone who claims not to be fascinated by it in some way, I believe is either lying, or they have something wrong with them in some way, because, sex is the very foundation of how we perpetuate our species, and though it may not be as prominent to some in this respect, it certainly should have a high bearing to them, why else would they get involved in romantic relationships and so forth? Anyway, I just do not understand the American obsession with violence and overbearing intolerance toward sex, if anyone has an idea about these things I would be very open to hearing them.